Received a shocked SMS at 12.14am (16/8/2010)

This morning I received a shocked sms from a close friend, the sms read as "my uncle is terminally ill with liver cancer, now at hospital in perak. I'm glad myself and family here with him". I felt so sad and am blanked at that moment, I dunno what to reply to my friend's sms while am still half awake due to the tune of sms alert me. I know everyone will leave the world & it's the matter of "when" ??? Life is short, please work hard, enjoy hard and do something meaningful in life to create good karma as a good human being. Fulfilled your responsiible and always perform prayer to stay peace and harmony.

Hope my friend uncle rest in peace, condolence to the family for the lost :(

God blessed all of them to continue stay happily !!!

A 180 degree changed in me & my lifestyle.

I used to be a very quiet person without life exposure. I felt I need to break through my fear in life and build my confident in order to achieve my dream. I sit back and think what make me decided to make a big change in me and my lifestyle compared to the past like "Katak di bawah tempurung". Life is short and tough, why don't I do something to fill the colors of my life ???

Yes...it begin from the moment I conquered mount kinabalu. This achievement really make me feel so proud of myself and whatever wish I make during the moment I stand at the peak. It's almost all become reality by now....thanks god for protecting me and allowed me to fulfilled my dream in life.

Am not a born sportman, I learn how to swim at the very much later age but still not too late. My swimming instructors have taught me different methods of swimming strokes till I upgraded from being a non swimmer become a life saver.

In life, whatever happened it's always have a reason. Few years ago, I went for a trip with a group of friends from Audit Negara to Mulu cave in sarawak. Some of my friends doesn't know how to do water treading and they're brave enough to swim at the river below clear water cave. Out of sudden, all of them shouted...help needed..."tolong...tolong". I thought they were playing around or just got a cramped. I heard another friend shouted at me....luvis....go go go...safe them. They're struggling since 10 mins ago. OMG !!! Without thinking my own risk, I rush to safe few of them. This is really scary, I almost drowning bcoz I approached the victim from front instead of dive into few meters and grab from the back of the victim. I was extremely lucky to safe a life and the remaining 3 persons floating to the surface from being grabbed by the first victim I have safe. The trip almost turn into tragedy, we are really fortunate that no one is hurt. Imagine more than 40 ppl at the same scene but just standing by not helping including those rangers and boatman....real bad experience for me.

After the bad nightmare, I decided to proceed all the test of life saving and become an instructor. Subsequently I took up international life saving, international open water surf and beach lifeguarding and open water diving course. Am not bother about the qualifications, the most important things in life is the skills that obtained through practical can be used in the future to safe ppl life.

Till year of 2008, my best friend (Bukhari) pursuaded me to sign up for Kapas Marang International Swimathon. This's a marathon swim race which required to swim across open sea 6.5km under strong current. I felt like commiting suicide when swimming alone in the open sea, why am I being so brave to swim across ocean without any kayak around me??? This's really crazy....madness !!! X bagitahu mak pulak tu...gosh !!! I sign up this without being honest to my parent. Imagine anything happen to me....HABIS !!! No wonder I can't complete the swim for twice I had tried and being a "DNF" is not a matter for me. As long as I have the MADNESS experience....haha.

After the first experience of swimming in the open sea, my friend asked me to become a relay swimmer for a veteran cyclist in the triathlon race which required to do 3 types of discipline (Swim-Bike-Run) for a durations of 4 hrs given to qualify for the finishing medals. I never heard of "Triathlon" race before in my life and not even know anything about "TRIATHLON" & "IRONMAN". I just thought Ironman is a movie title...LOL

From time to time, I get to know more friends through many activities I have participated. I started to realized the important of health, I understand ppl doing tri and ironman not only for self-achievement but it's also test our physical and mental to determine the destiny in any race. As I said, am not a sportman. I used to go for jogging every weekend but the longer distance I can do is up to 3km only then go for breakfast with friends. After all, why should ppl being so consistent to wake up in the early morning before sunrise just to run ??? Better to sleep much longer than wake up early, right ??? I met few friends at tasik shah alam and they are trying to "Poison" me to participate in the running race. In my heart I just think why should I pay so much for the running race??? To torture myself during the run and suffered legs pain just to fight for the finishing medal. This is really ridiculous ???

I decided to give it a try, the more I run the more I felt the pain....o.....noooooo....and the worst things is I hate to see ppl overtake me or passes by. I felt myself being left behind and worried myself will be the last person to enter finishing line....very kiasu & pressure !!! Cisssssss...I didn't wish to continue to do all this painful activities. It takes me awhile to think the reason of why so many ppl are into running, cycling and swimming including doing triathlon and ironman. I asked myself am I doing it just to follow ppl step or just to filled up my leisure time ??? Finally I have my own answer....I want to stay healthy, focus and determine. To do all this tough sport it required time to train not for the sick of doing it. The more I train I get satisfaction in any race I participated. It's not about winning but it's about the satisfaction and companionship to make my life more colorful. In another words, it can motivate and determine from different ways.

The changes in me till today is much better compared to the past, I feel proud of myself that I'm still able to do any sports. I'll continue to enjoy my life and stay healthy.